Truth: the liquid kind

I listen to Radiohead when I contemplate killing you— I want to smash your glass and get at the inside of your meaning. Shells tell different truths— look at me. See, I’m right and tight with my plastic teeth, and painted eyes that never blink. We mislead, you and me. © Kindra M. Austin (image: Gifer)Continue reading “Truth: the liquid kind”

Happy Wives Bake Pies

The sun came begging again at my doorstep; I turned him away. Got no use for gods at play. Too much decease has grown me up. I am weeds, immune to disease, and I only live in order to survive. But to what end? So questions Depression, mine. Depression is the paparazzi— always trying toContinue reading “Happy Wives Bake Pies”

For Only Me

  Every day it does reign, a perpetual decrescendo— melancholic melody made for only me.   Deluge of disquiet comprises choral pessimists repeating in my head. Depressionist percussionist beats heart that’s damn near dead. Dirges designed for only me.   But! Though it does reign—my melancholic melody—I seek the one to share an umbrella.  Continue reading “For Only Me”

Fibromyalgia: You Don’t Own Me

Despite the pain I live with every day, I often do forget that I’m not twenty anymore–until I hand down to my girl some vintage band tees too small for me now. Goodbye Fleetwood Mac tank top, and Rolling Stones long sleeved t-shirt. See you around, Abbey Road with the small hole in the armpit.Continue reading “Fibromyalgia: You Don’t Own Me”

My Fibromyalgia Check-list: Legit Reasons Why I’m a Surly Bitch

Fibromyalgia, insidious onset (yeah fucking right). Symptoms include: Fatigue, worsened by physical exertion or stress (CHECK) Activity level decreased to less than 50% of pre-illness activity level (CHECK) Recurrent flu-like illness (CHECK) Sore throat (CHECK) Hoarseness (CHECK) Tender or swollen lymph nodes (glands), especially in neck & underarms (CHECK) Shortness of breath with little orContinue reading “My Fibromyalgia Check-list: Legit Reasons Why I’m a Surly Bitch”

Catch a Chronic Illness

If you don’t have a chronic illness, I suggest you find one, grab hold of it, and hand over control. Life is much simpler when you have something legitimate to blame. If you feel like cutting out of work early, your illness is the best excuse to walk out in the middle of your shift,Continue reading “Catch a Chronic Illness”