What you think you know of me, you’ve gleaned
from pages of a yellow legal pad stained with sterile ink
leaked
from your doctor’s pen;
it’s an emotionless affair, the goings-on between patient and psychiatrist.
I’m a mistress in hysterics seeking validation from
just another goddamned man.
If this
were the nineteenth century, you’d have long sent me
to an asylum
and had my womb mutilated by staff surgeons.
When I speak, you scribble,
and I imagine you’re only illustrating me naked,
sprawled upon the divan, jaundice skinned and lined with blue.
“Make me a whole person,”
you write
inside
a comic book word bubble inserted
right above my over-sized head.
Yes, I know what you’re up to,
but I continue talking about how I feel since learning
my mother
had woken up dead, and the gut-raping grief inside of me,
because I do want to be a whole person.
It’s an emotionless affair, the goings-on between patient and psychiatrist.
© 2019
Reblogged this on SPO_OKY and commented:
Kindra. She writes of love and life and of death in a way that moves me, makes me think, makes me FEEL. It’s not the only reason that I hold her in such high regard. I love her.
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❤ ❤ ❤
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I have the biggest lump in my throat reading this…and I’m sorry that I only just read it. You are such a stunning, real writer. And I love you.
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It’s okay! ❤ I love you. Thank you for being my friend. ❤
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Very vivid imagery and wow!
You know…I’ve tried psychiatry once in my life.
I never enjoyed throwing my emotions at some man who just writes and doesn’t give any good advice. It’s the same with all psychiatrist. I mean if it works for some good, but not for me.
You did an incredible job writing and describing this so well.
Miss you Kindra. 🙂
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I didn’t enjoy my experience either. I’ve yet to meet a person who says they’ve benefited.
How are you these days? ❤
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True. I know exactly how you feel my friend.
I’m doing well. Just writing, reading, spending time with my girlfriend, and working. And listening to a lot of industrial noise/electronic grooves. hahahahaha!!!!
How have you been feeling?
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❤ I listen to a lot of music as well. I'm actually returning to human status after a long depression. I'm on new meds that make me sleepy, but I'm smiling a lot more, so that's a plus. I'm busy working on a horror/fantasy that I plan to pitch to literary agents. I'm taking my time with it, and enjoying writing it very much.
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Really beautiful writing and while not a woman myself, I can relate to the relationship dynamic you describe….awesome stuff!
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I appreciate that! Thank you. ❤
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Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Kindra M. Austin – “Therapy” session
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Thank you so much! ❤
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Welcome!!
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Show no reaction they taught
Maintain that “therapeutic distance”
Leave humanity at home
“Make me a whole person”
Says the patient
How can the disease
The one documented
On the yellow pad
Ever be the whole person?
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🙂
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🤘
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That was a compliment 🙂
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I know, lol, thank you! ❤
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Reblogged this on Brave & Reckless and commented:
Brilliance from Kindra M. Austin
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Thank you Love!
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