She has my head in her lap. Her fingers are raking through my sweat tangled hair; it kind of hurts, but I don’t want to pull away. All I need now is my little yellow plastic cup filled with apple or grape juice.
I’m crushing ants with my thumb as they speed along the cracks in the concrete. Some of them are carrying dead insects.
Hurry home, little ants. Run for your lives.
I hope I’m not doing anything important when I die. I can’t stand the thought that it might happen while I’m in the middle of something with Peter, or even doing something mundane, like driving home with a Saturday night pizza and movie rental. I guess I can’t stand the thought of dying, period. Not that I’m afraid of my own death. I just don’t want the people I love to be sad.
My thumb is so fast, the ants don’t have time to realize they’re about to die. What’s it like, Renny? Or maybe drowning doesn’t work that way. Your death happened so quickly, maybe you were just like these ants; unaware of God’s thumb poised overhead.
I may actually buy my first book from a blogger.
Yours, if that wasn’t clear. I’m becoming more inspired to write because of you. I just don’t have the patience for a novel. It feels a lot like assigning myself work, and I’ve got plenty of people doing that for me already. lol
But if I get the chance, I’ll finish one of the ones I started.
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I’m not writing novels for the money or celebrity. I write novels because human connection is important to me. And I’m not mainstream, by any means. In fact, I rage against mainstream. I would be honored if you read my book. Just know beforehand that my style and tone is not book store typical.
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I’m not a Picault, Patterson, Brown, etc., etc., type of person. In fact, what I read right now is about 40% urban fantasy, and the rest sci fi and hapless guy novels by Douglas Coupland and so forth. I’ll check it out soon!
I write a blog because I like a lot of different things, and not everyone likes all of them. lol so I connect with 4-5 mini-audiences.
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I’ve read a few Picault novels, but one in particular depressed me. Her writing style is not necessarily unacceptable to my taste, but the subject matter of this latest book of hers I read was just…sad. Don’t get me wrong, sadness does not normally turn me off…but this…it hurt a part of my heart too badly, and now I’m kind of sour regarding Picault. Patterson, I don’t like him. He is a formulaic writer, and though I understand that mainstream LOVES formulaic authors like him because it equals big money, I am not one of those who appreciates a template. This may sound absurdly cold, but I find commercial fiction vacuous, and it upsets me that literary fiction, once highly revered, is put on the back burner of the industry.
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I probably won’t read either. Patterson isn’t the writer, dirty little secret. At some point about 20 years ago, he started writing only the outline, and other writers flesh the story out. That’s how he appears to be so prolific. He’s not like, say, Isaac Asimov, who wrote all his own books and in nearly every category of book, too.
I like urban fantasy, seems entertaining more than anything and it is, but it’s also chock full of philosophy, religion, mythology, and human relations, and brilliant quotes all over the place. I got t his idea in my head that I wouldn’t want anyone to know my library habits, so I stupidly never kept track. Now I find myself knowing I’ve read hundreds of books the past two or three years, but not remembering quite a lot of them. I can usually find them by looking for, say, ‘that book about an autistic kid who has an imaginary friend, from the point of view of the imaginary friend’ and find it that way.
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Now I’m even more disgusted with Patterson. There are even television advertisements (starring himself) of his shitty books. Ugh. I don’t read a ton of ‘current authors.’ I’m kind of a literary snob. And maybe that’s because I gave up on current authors, and don’t know who to read anymore. I like science fiction and fantasy a lot. And I read a lot of literary fiction, mostly classics. One current author I really enjoy is Rob Tom Smith.
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Okay, well I’ll recommend Jim Butcher (Dresden Files), Simon R. Green (Tales From the Nightside, Secret Histories, and a third series that’s new), Rob Thurman (Cal Leandros), Richard Kadrey (Sandman Slim) Charles Stross (Laundry Files), and Tad Williams (Bobby Dollar), and that’s about 60 plus books right there. All first person, all hardboiled, all protagonists have something supernatural about them, all have girlfriends who are powerful and strong in their own ways (except Cal Leandros, because… you’ll find out, and Bobby Dollar because he’s an angel). All recommended highly, particularly Green and Kadrey
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Thank you! I will look them up. I love reading.
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Me too. It’s relaxing. Among other things.
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Right now, I am reading The Lonesome Gods by Louis L’Amour. His detail of the desert is beautiful beyond words.
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That sounds beautiful. I don’t think I’ve ever read him.
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This is my first go at his work. He wrote a shit ton of westerns, which I typically don’t read. A friend read me an excerpt of The Lonesome Gods, and I thought I would give it a try.
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I see tons of paperbacks by him at the library. I never bite. Lol
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Hahaha! I probably won’t read any of his others. Aside from the landscape details, it’s kind of boring.
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Haha Cowboy Bob danced across the painted desert, big sky spilling blue light on the landscape. He spit a chaw of tobacco on the shifting sands, hitting a gecko between the eyes.
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Bahahahaha! You should totally write a mock western. You’re too fucking good.
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Shootout at the Not Okay Corral
Lol I’m not too too good
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Oh, for fuck’s sake, that is hilarious! 😂
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Kindra this is top notch quality writing… I needs to check more.
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Thank you so much, friend. I love my debut novel. And I look forward to my own growth.
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I will be buying it very shortly…
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You’re so good to me. Thank you. ❤ I can't wait to buy yours, and begin pimping you. ❤
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Doesn’t that mean I am your ho?
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Don’t worry, sweet thing. I respect you.
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As a keen admirer of the works of Iceberg Slim I know that sweet and honeyed talk is just meant to hustle my ass onto the track.
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Bahahahahaha! For realz, baby. I got your back. I will hustle for your benefit because I like you so damned much.
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Did I not surprise you if this little nugget? Big fan of mid twentieth century African American literature…Slim is my man.
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I looked up Slim after your initial mention of him. I had not heard of him!
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Well K. I know self praise is no praise but I am really well read…really really really well read
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I have no doubt you are weller read than I. And I’ve always thought I pretty well read. Which is why I like you so much. You inspire me to broaden my scope.
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Curiously Surrealism had a pretty big effect on African American and Caribbean literature. Ralph Ellison Invisible Man which is an outstanding novel is very surreal on parts. I will send you a few links, written by me of course.
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Thank you ❤
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https://cakeordeathsite.wordpress.com/2016/09/30/serpent-sun/
Cesaire did his thesis on the Harlem Renaissance and would later become President of Martinique. I mentioned Fanon in my long and horrible war of words about the whole left is actually fascists debate, but it was like arguing with Humpty Dumpty.
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https://cakeordeathsite.wordpress.com/2016/09/30/serpent-sun/
Not sure if my previous reply on this went through. cesaire did his thesis on the Harlem Renaissance and would later become President of Martinique. Fanon was a huge figure in the 60’s for the Black Panthers and other Black Power movements. Brilliant book
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https://cakeordeathsite.wordpress.com/2017/01/20/redraw-the-map-re-write-history-and-re-invent-reality/
This only touches marginally on it at the end when I mention the negritude movement, which was a fore runner to the black power movement, but hey, this is a great article.
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Thank you! Reading it now.
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Your writing makes me sigh, every bit of this book is so utterly beautiful.
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Jac, what a lovely thing to say! Thank you! ❤💞❤
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Surely you know the Radiohead song: Morning Mister Magpie? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CcLE1v4Msns&t=2555s
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Radiohead is one of my very bands ❤❤❤
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Mine, too.one of those bands getting better and better (not many of them)
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Absolutely, I agree. I’ve not been fortunate enough to see Radiohead live, but it’s a dream of mine. Thank you for the link. I love that song. ❤
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All my pleasure! The whole from the basement series, I want to listen to it forever. And seeing them actually playing in private, it is just a pleasure. And I will sing along, having the tune in my head all day. Don’t know what my life was like before. And I think they have a great influence on my art as well.
I didn’t see them live as well and it makes my heart break. Having seen Linkin Park only a week or two before … Well it makes my heart break. I just have to see them! It’s different live!
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Oh, my gosh. I was heartbroken when I learned of Chester. The tragedy of his death still sits heavy in my chest.
I love your artwork, by the way. There is so much to felt, not only seen in your fine lines. I appreciate you very much. ❤
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So was i…
Thank you ever so much!
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You’re welcome. I’m so happy to see your work. 🙂
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Sad… but such lovely, gentle writing. Love to you ❤
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Thank you. Love to you, too. 🌺🌸🌺
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❤
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I’ve read that people need to see something they may purchase at least 8 times before they buy it! I encourage you to keep reblogging
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Thank you! Self-marketing makes me feel so dirty, lol! But I have to do it. 🙂 And I AM happy to stand by work.
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I really like this. I may have to check out the book. 🙂
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Thank you, Walt. It’s my debut–very close to my heart.
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If I can scrape up some cash I’ll order it 🙂
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❤
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