You’re a Bitch, and I love You

All my life, mother,

I’ve loved you above myself

even when you’ve loved yourself

more than you’ve loved me in return.

I now know you’ve hated yourself

for making me abandon myself

in hopes you’d love me in return.

You’re sick, my mother;

you’re aware.

But I am strong, and you are proud.

You don’t have to change

because I am


I erase your guilt

because I am strong,

and I can handle you.

Self-hatred comes only in

tolerable intervals.

Tolerable for yourself;

when I’m teaching you lesson

I’m fucking hating myself

because I know I’m making you

fucking miserable, reminding you that you’re

a shit mother–and it’s not even your fault.

Do you know the rage in my heart

kept hot for your mother and father?

How is it that you can forgive them–

have a relationship with these two fucks,

but I cannot stand to even think their names?

I am your offspring, and I love you better than a mother.

I have taken care of you, chased off men better than a father.

I am your daughter, and sometimes I don’t want to be.

But really, who the fuck would I be without you?

I’m grateful for my life with you because

you taught me how to live.


Published by Kindra M. Austin

Author of fiction, poetry, and very sweary social commentary. Editor, and co-founder of Indie Blu(e) Publishing. Co-founder of Blood Into Ink, and Heretics, Lovers, and Madmen.

27 thoughts on “You’re a Bitch, and I love You

  1. I personally feel that a bond between a child & his/her mother is one of the purest forms of love bond that could ever exist. I really enjoyed the brutal honesty of your thoughts & the explosive nature of your intense emotions. Keep it up with the bliss of your immeasurable creativity Kindra 🙂

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      1. Ofcourse where there is love, misunderstanding do creep in but the important fact is that you accept & appreciate your mother despite the tough times/ flaws that have to deal with 🙂


    1. You know, I’ve having problems lately with people I follow becoming unfollowed for no reason. I’ve missed a number of posts by people I quite like, only to find out I’m not following. Pain in the ass. grrr

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